Kekura

Ia seekor kekura tua. Terbit kalbunya sekelumit rasa. Seolah tidak lah ada gunanya laku. Kekadang ia cuba membantu. Tetapi usainya kelahi. Bila dikata buat nya satu kernanya suatu. Terasa seperti dikhianati pendamnya. Seolah yang jerih itu dilontar kerna kepentingan diri. Salahkah kekura memberi cuma kernanya rasa yang timbul? Dari terbit rasanya insan. Tapi cumanya. Bila yang itu pun disalah erti. Kekura terguris. Kalbunya dihiris. Terasa segala laku laksana sebab kepentingan semata. Tapi. Salah lagi. Bilanya. Dengan sedikit rasa misih tersisa. Cuba disebut beruntai kata. Sekali kasar utara terterbit bicara. Asal kata mahu mengurai. Jadinya. Makin kusut kian kabut. Tapi. Apakah perlu ia jadinya sebab menghalang nya tindak? Jangan. Bukan nanti kekura diadilinya orang seorang. Singkat hidup untuk terbatuk. Singkat hidup untuk terhantuk. Singkat hidup untuk bermenung. Singkat hidup untuk meraung. Singkat hidup untuk berpaling. Singkat hidup untuk berpusing. Kerna bila tiba masa kan tetap diusir. Tanpa sedar masanya akhir. Kerna diri hanya musafir. Hanya yang berfikir dapat menafsir. Jangan direnung kisah silam yang kusam. Petiklah yang asam cedoklah yang garam. Memang yang depan itu kelam. Memang nanti ada yang suram. Boleh jadi yang tinggal lereng yang curam. Biarlah. Biarlah sungkur. Biarlah sembam. Dah namanya tebing. Asal geraknya depan dan bukannya belakang. Angin kan membisik di malam bole. Mengarah cekau jalanan depan. Biar terpaksa merangkak-merangkak. Meski berbengkak terus bergerak. Dari tercangak sembul umpama tunggul. Yang bersimpuh lenguh terus mengeluh. 

Bunyi

2231, Jan 9, 2012

Greyhound

Terlintas di kala mendengar alunan dimain dalamnya iPod. Lebih kurangnya satu jam lagi kan tiba di Port Authority, 8^th ave. 42^nd st. NYC, berkepulangan dari ibu negara asing ini yakni Washington DC.  Tika ini, bermain di fikiran secara tiba-tiba akan persoalan mengenai hak yang dimilik orang, dari satu sisi yang sedikit berbeza. Terbitnya soal ini datangnya dari yang terdendang dengar. Sering kita bicara yang hak tetap hak. Dan dengan tidak meletakkan satu hak itu pada tempatnya kita telah berlaku zalim sangatnya. Setakat itu masih lagi rasanya masing-masing sedia maklum. Sedia tahu juga akan nanti ditanya segala perilaku, yang didengar, dilihat, dikata. Yang kali ini, menyentuh sikit tentang apa yang didengar.

Another Day, Another Lesson

1/5/12 1640

Another valuable lesson learned today, or rather, experiencing something that reminded me of the fact that one day I will be left alone on my own, in that dark tiny box, buried deep 7 ft. under the ground. Today at 401 Medical Imaging, I had MRI Arthrogram done on my right shoulder. First off, I was told to remove all clothing that I have on me and was instructed to put on the patient garment. While wrapping that beige cotton cloth around my body, I was struck with a very strange feeling. The fact that there will come a day when the same thing will be repeated again, but when the time comes, I will not be the one that doing it but rather, there will be someone else that will wrap me layer by layer, while I will just be lying senseless, motionless, unable to do a single thing, making me realized the harsh reality of death.

From A Friend To A Friend

Thank you Allah.


For giving me friends that are willing to show me the path to obtain Your Nur and Hidayah
For giving me friends that have faith in me and those that I can trust
For giving me friends that are willing to correct me when I'm wrong
For giving me friends that taught me to firmly hold to your rope and never let it go
For giving me friends with the best mannerism and akhlak,


With such composure and hikmah
With great vision and ambition
With strong heart and wonderful mind


Never crossed my mind to be blessed with such wonderful people by my side
Tirelessly giving me lesson about life
I never deemed myself to be worthy for you guys to recognize me as one of your friend, let alone as a companion


Only due to His mercy that I'm able to be by your side dear brothers and sisters, and for that, I can never thank you enough oh Allah


Dear friends, I just learned an invaluable lesson today


that brotherhood is thicker than blood, as long as you hold onto the blessed path


Hence, as much as I appreciate my own life, I valued more the bond that we have between me and you


Regardless of anything that had happened, or is happening, or whatever that might happen later on in life, as long as I'm breathing, all that I ask from you is to allow me to be your brother under the shades of His throne, His majestic, His might, His glory


Those are just some thoughts that come up from the bottom of my heart, of this humble servant, that always failed to obey His order, that always forget to be thankful, and always shamelessly begging for His mercy when being tested with trials and tribulation


Sincerely


from a friend to a friend